it could mean an even worse off fate. depending on how much u put in.
i personally dont deem much in chances... however i must admit how much divine fate has played in my social circle.
i do not wish to be governed by it but yet i am very much influenced by its aura... much to my amusement.
we do not have control over providence... and in my opinion definitely no complete control over any matter at all.
so sit back. relax. and let nature take its own course
Listening to...
Sunday, October 19, 2003

you are ÆNEMA. apathy and cyncism surround you and
you probably believe in nihilsm (you're also
probably right to believe in it). you think the
world if full of materialistic goddamn shallow
dipshits and if their existance was wiped away
the world would be a much better place. someday
you'll get your desires filled
what TOOL song are you brought to you by Quizilla

You are Lateralus. You are unique, intelligent, and
most importantly, an individual. You are
probably a leader and you see and do things
your own way, which is usually different from
the norm. We expect big things to come from
you.
What Tool song are you? brought to you by Quizilla
dont ask me i have absolutely no idea.
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12:09 PM
Friday, October 17, 2003
been shit shagged today... went for cip and then after that the gym... then went to eat out at marche with kai, cheuk, xavier , han and yaqi... rather eventful today had loads to laugh about.
mainly to sum up the MAIN EVENT, roger poon cheuk got SCOUTED!!! someone approached him and asked for him to cast in some dunno what show... then later found out that the guy's company is something called HONGKONG PRODUCTIONS... kai xavier and me were laughing like mad... damn funny sial... roger is about to become a HOT CHEUK SUPERSTARRRRRR!!!!!!! he took down cheuk's name, contact number and even took a picture of him on the spot! hahaha sex man damn funnyyy... he even laughingly exclaimed that cheuk had a rather high chance of getting it... even HE was enjoying the humour... haha what a day mannn... pooon-star cheuk!
note to roger : if u ever become a superstar pls dont forget the friends around you okay???
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10:58 PM
Thursday, October 16, 2003
did nothing much... went to town with bala, cheuk and kenji for what may be the last form of pleasure before the ultimate day of beckoning... i dont care whether i screwed up or not, i just wanna scrape thru or something... shit scared man...
Listening to...
Placebo - Sleeping With Ghosts
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9:17 PM
Wednesday, October 15, 2003
moment of enlightenment : Fornication Under Consent of King
thus we have the acronym F.U.C.K. it is so commonly used nowadays that oxford has approved of it to be widely used as a word itself. however the context is now changed and it is an obscene display of profanity.
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11:10 PM
Sunday, October 12, 2003
thinking about the leaving j2s again... saddenings again... on monday when school starts... LT1 will be fucking empty.
i will really fucking miss them... i really will. everything drops back to pure boredom. like a big part of my life is forced out of me.. i wonder when will i ever get to see all of them... together again...
true... everyone hates a scheduled routine. to go for lessons at appropriate times... to wear school uniforms... to tuck in your shirts... to have a
guai hairdo... we do hate them. but have u stopped to think that we're overly protected? it also means that we're ignorant of whatever stupid shit we do... and we're all part of this school... that the school is like a motherly figure... whose hands protecting our very foolish adolescence...
i really wished for normality... but it seemed that for everywhere anyhow... changes are but unavoidable... and we definitely have no power to stop it.
the males are deemed the physically stronger gender. they are not allowed to show callously reveal their emotions.
for showing it would expose one's frailty. sometimes it is better to let it all out. not for it to accumulate and deepen the wound. to let it all out actually would take a lot of guts. it's not as easy as you would think it is. i myself would never allow that to happen. i therefore do not deem my own courage as highly as before this ordeal.
Man is borne to hate beginnings and ends. they hate beginnings because it is the hardest step... it would mean new changes... like the first few weeks of class... most will undoubtfully hate their class... for they would miss their previous classes... Man would hate the end. because it symbolises the time for changes again, changes that Man has adapted and gotten used to... only to realise that in due time they have no choice but to face new ones again. buden again... the end has its use on our emotions as well... it brings to a point where it stresses and highlights the important good old memories... the importance of it being such that we will treasure the memories... and for the memories to live in our hearts forever.
sidenote : sb8 is really doing well... i will really miss them alot alot alot. they are a bunch of true friends... being really fun.. and trustworthy as well... its the most most fun class everrrr... to the sb8-sians (otherwise known as the spades) i will always always remember all of you... yes all of you... we will need to meet up soon and never lose contact. ever...
Listening to...
Muse - Citizens Erased
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12:22 AM
Saturday, October 11, 2003
sudden realisation : booze makes u appreciate music better.... all kinds of music... including techno...
Listening to...
Muse - Citizens Erased
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6:59 PM
Friday, October 10, 2003
rather emotional day it for me the baccalaureate... took lots and lotsa pictures...
last day for all my dear friends... last chance to experience the same joy that i once enjoyed since the first day of school last year... it did flood me back with memories... of the first day of school in acjc... introduction of everyone in class on the first day... and we went on to become good friends... the '03 j2 batch had been a rather retarded batch... but undoubtedly the most fun... i had the feeling of being left behind... but what could i do? i happily chose to retain... i just hope for the better of my friends leaving the college... for the road is long... that they make the right choices in life... separation seems inevitable... life must go on... but memories can live forever though... it can last time... yes only memories can last the test of time... good, sweet memories... i will miss them...
check out the pictures in -=CAPTURED II!=-... featuring the baccalaureate... its not completed yet... it wud be once i've collected the image files from my frens...
Listening to...
The Verve - Bitter Sweet Symphony
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6:11 PM
Thursday, October 09, 2003
exams are finally over... feeling abit relieved that a big burden off my shoulders... whether i do well or not is up to the Great Providence to decide... it's the least of my concerns now....
not particularly ecstatic over it like what my fellow friends are feeling right now... i do feel abit of depressed... 'cos that marks the end of school for my j2 friends... my clique will be gone soon... feeling rather lost... buden again... there's gotta be an end for everything... meeting and parting is all but part and parcel of life... for me and the j2s it would be very soon... hope we all keep in contact... and that they do well in As... and what's to come after that... and lastly... SEX.
whats left of 1985's legacy are the few of us... we all better make it man...
*a rather apt song for such an occasion...*
Listening to...
Muse - Unintended
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9:31 PM
Wednesday, October 08, 2003
exams are cruising well under control...
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2:44 PM
Friday, October 03, 2003
nope. absolutely
NOTHING is in my control.
EVERTHING is getting wayyy out of hand.
only hope is to hand everything to the
Great Divine above.
i pray all my friends get through this... someway or another...
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11:21 PM
Thursday, October 02, 2003
2 examination days have passed... taken phy paper 3, GP, chinese and econs paper 3
GP was rather okay? (i guess... keeping my fingers crossed!) econs was rather okay too (i presume!)
i bloody screwed my physics paper 3...
and chinese is of course okay whats new...
nothing is in control nowww... damn worried about what's to come...
oh yea tomorrow no papers... cant slack man... damn!
worries... worries... worries...
Listening to...
Marilyn Manson - Cryptorchid
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5:34 PM
about me
::my info::
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