Friday, February 18, 2005

A level results are in less than a month's time, but it didnt seem to bother me much at all. i've been rarely on my com, with the reason being that i found a new love. her name is sony.

sleeping at 3am every night for the past 2 weeks have finally taken its toll on me. not that i've become somewhat lacklustre, since i am considered that by my normal standards. i feel that the craving to sleep was beyond my ability to suppress. and like the past 3 weeks, i fall asleep during work today. again.

i dreamt about inanimate objects with vivid details. it was as if i could feel them as i were them, but i am not. one instance was the gargoyle. in my dream it could move, nevermind night or day. it just chose not to. because life is a drag. because in life you cannot stop others from coming into your life someway or another. in order not to fuck up your life too bad, you learn to think more into reality approach. putting yourselves in people's shoes they say. i say putting up a sarcastic, fake front to please people, most often at your own expense.

sometimes situations are beyond our control. you see corruption and thievery of lips. especially those of seniority and ranking. they are the ones bringing you into their tutelage about everything righteous. they are the ones sinning. i see all of this. i feel lethargy. i choose not to care. through many adversities i chose to back out. perhaps a coward. or perhaps more so that i've seen too much to care. i do not care.

very much like my office situation, im too lazy to eat, or even move. i just lie down and stare at nothing. with that a million thoughts rush through my mind in moments, and i smiled. i always smile.

all the other people are imaginary. i do not need to care.

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