everything has come to a close... to my huge relief...
oh well... shit happens...
but it was all fun... hell load of fun... sex.
ive been rather upset about the recent tribulations in life that i actually started to write about recent events...
if not i would have been writing randomly about anything that crosses my mind... anything at all...
and that usually would have been rather negative views about the world... blah blah blah.... anyway here's one thought that crossed my mind (inspired by a certain friend writing about the same topic) :
there are people out there depicting that sin is but nature of humanity... and there are others who condemn all blame of unholy behaviour to media content influence... well to me i beg to differ...
i do not think that man is nothing but an innate butcher... knowing nothing but to kill for lust and absolute satisfaction...
yes to man of adulthood killing, torture and lust seems to excite the adrenalin rush... but nonetheless they have already been subjected to at least 21 years worth of environmental influences...
i do not see infants carrying knives with their bloody hands... neither do i sense any vicious intent in their eyes...
nor do i see their appetite for others' flesh and blood...
i only see them eat, shit, sleep... and having their way around with almost everything... just by merely crying...
i dont think that media content is the origin of all sin and utterrrrr evil... however it is true that they do influence...
but what makes holy people like that of mother theresa? surely they too have been exposed to the unclean... but are they harmed?
indeed the friends whom you mix around with very much depicts one's character and personality... and we bloody choose who we wanna befriend... so we are responsible for what we are...and to become...
at birth the baby knows nothing... is nothing.... and bloody commits nothing...
(other than being an absolute pest when annoyed... and an adorable darling to most girls...)
there is no such thing as the nature of man... as the beginning tells nothing of the sort...
maybe absolute emptiness is the state of purity... not the bad ... and neither the good...
surely there is no debate over that...
and although indeed the thought of sin corrupts and excites... it is however after the execution of such undesired acts that often led to guilt, utter remorse, anxiety and insomnia...
anyway ive introduced this song to many of my friends... this is my favorite song EVER! to those outdated peeps who still dunno this song... go download it and try out or something... great vocals, guitars, speed and rhythm...
Listening to...
Sonata Arctica - Still Loving You
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6:17 PM
Wednesday, August 27, 2003
however i do wanna add that there's still some lingering hopes left amidst the darkness...
our punishment has previously been alleviated from an excruciating ten hours to four-and-a-half hours to 3 hours...
but unexpected careless but unintentional events sparked off falling dominoe like misfortunes that led to our struggle as of now...
better watch my step... and my 7 other compatriots too...
Listening to...
Deftones - Lucky You
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12:28 AM
Tuesday, August 26, 2003
it seems that calamities one by one strike us... as if to pin us down on the floor till we bleed dry and die...
till we completely devote our bodies in complete submission to the almighty power in its bid subduing us...
we have no right... we have no say...
everything we say and do will be held against us...
any trivial thing we attempt in a jovial manner with no harmful intentions in mind were taken that we had shown contempt to the almight power with supreme authority...
im rather tired resisting this... no... i was not even resisting...
i was already under the complete dominance of this unrelenting power...
contemplating is all i can do now... thinking about when all this terror will ever end...
everything is up to the divine Providence in securing our pathways as of now...
we are not in control of the situation... never were we ever in control...ever...
Listening to
Blur - Beetlebum
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10:49 PM
Sunday, August 24, 2003
guys i just updated my webshots with lotsa new pics
do yourselves a damn favor by CLICKING on the damn link -=MY PICS!!!=-
thank you. :)
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7:07 PM
looking back at the earth from a distance like that of the moon and the earth...
we do not see any of us at all...
clearly we are diminished... useless and powerless.... in pale comparison with the upper being with absolute authority...
clearly we are minute... and utterly uninfluential... but yet we see ourselves as great...
in retrospect... we see many people attempting many things... some of which were labelled success stories and also tagged great to their names... supported by the clumsy yet foolish masses...
nothing we do can stop judgement... neither do we even realise our very killing of mother earth by the luxuries bestowed upon by her...
yet so many do not give up.... they do not understand...
and yet they continue to give heart, mind and soul... their all... for the sake of greatness eternity...
which is just a foolish fallacy... when all else returns to dust and soil...
no mortal escapes death... and that alone deems evidence to our infidelity...
and no greatness nor accomplishments can bring one away from the clutches of the grim reaper...
for we are only human... yes only human...
Listening to
System of a Down - Chop Suey
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6:55 PM
Thursday, August 21, 2003
Exit Music (For A Film)
Wake.. from your sleep
The drying of your tears
Today we escape, we escape
Pack.. and get dressed
Before your father hears us
Before all hell breaks loose
Breathe, keep breathing
Don't lose your nerve
Breathe, keep breathing
I can't do this alone
Sing.. us a song
A song to keep us warm
There's such a chill, such a chill
You can laugh
A spineless laugh
We hope your rules and wisdom choke you
Now we are one in everlasting peace
We hope that you choke, that you choke
We hope that you choke, that you choke
We hope that you choke, that you choke
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11:13 PM
just when i thought the troubles are about to reach an end... more just come on their way to fuck me up my backside...
yes... the punishment to "atone for our oh.. atrocious sins" is not enough for us to be condemned to the extreme levels of hell... we were to be brought back to be tortured even more by our beloved mentor...
these few days were packed stiff with mixed emotions... we were enjoying ourselves to a rare hearty laughter when things just had to come unexpectedly to fuck our backsides all the way up to our mouths...
we are most probably gonna get punished due to the loss of face of our dear beloved mentor... :)
seriously speaking... we're gonna get punished due to offences out of thin air... which is nothing at all....
any loopholes in our behaviour is certain to see us being AWARDED national day awards like demerit points... dc... manpower duties and what not...
think im suffering from a weak heart from all these incredible escapades... looking forward to what else in the damn world can fuck me further up from my backside... im already fucked up all the way to the mouth already... troubles coming to me seem limitless...
seriously... no more alarms... no more surprises for me...
Listening to...
Radiohead - No Surprises
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11:10 PM
Wednesday, August 20, 2003
Get It Faster
I don't care what you do.
I'm getting out , no nothing ever shames me.
Don't wanna thing from you
I'm going out, I don't care if you're angry.
I'm getting out, no nothing ever shames me.
I'm going out, I don't care if you're angry.
I should've thought things through.
I'm holding out, but not getting an answer.
I wanna do right by you.
I'm finding out, cheating gets it faster.
I'm holding out, not getting an answer.
I'm finding out that cheating gets it faster.
I'm holding out, but not getting an answer.
I'm finding out, cheating gets it faster.
I don't care what you do.
I'm getting out, no nothing ever shames me.
Don't wanna thing from you.
I'm going out, I don't care if you're angry.
I should've thought things through.
Yeah I'm holding out, but not getting an answer.
I wanna do right by you.
I'm finding out that cheating gets it faster.
I'm getting out, no nothing ever shames me.
I'm going out, I don't care if you're angry.
I holding out, but not getting an answer.
I'm finding out, cheating gets it faster.
yea i do agree with them... cheating does get you further... that is... if you dont get caught...
no one on earth can boast that he/she has never ever cheated before... everyone has... one way or another..
be it tests... relationships... they themselves... and what not...
human nature... its all in the human nature...
Listening to...
Jimmy Eat World - Get It Faster
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6:58 PM
Tuesday, August 19, 2003
heyy guys just got my webshots.com done... click on the link MY PICS to see them...
yeapp... peace out!~
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11:22 PM
today is roger cheuky's birthday... rather too eventful perhaps... mixed emotions all
the day started when we were discussing when and how to strip poor cheuky...
flipped past the news to the horoscope section and saw cheuky's zodiac sign... which advises him to
go home feeling satisfied instead of being frustrated...... which spawned an eerie string of events to make this line seem true...
the horror commenced when lynn caught cheuky... then accused him of setting every computer in the school's wallpaper to be that bizarre face of his (please refer to #1 Claypot).
of course... the whole gang of us owned up... which is nearly the whole damn class...
we tried to get poor innocent cheuky to be acquitted of his charges against something he was not guilty of...
apparently lynn wasnt very convinced by that...
instead lynn commented that he was
DISGUSTED to see this
HORRENDOUS pic of his... and did not think twice before condemning him by saying that cheuk did not want to report us due to the exposure and publicity he receives as a result of it... yesh... what the fuck...
it was rather dumb but it would be more so if we had rebuked him...
i felt that all this was rather dumb.... all because of a stupid prank... but we would never have thought that it would have been blown to this extent... we were made to believe we committed an offence equivalent to that of treason and murder...
we came down to this so-called "equation"... stating that for the ten coms we tampered with... we were to serve ten hours worth of community service in the school library...starting from today... oh yeshhhh... -_-
after that we reluctantly dragged our feet back to class... and soon after we stripped cheuky... managed to take some pics of him topless with his name written across his chest... haha...
we ended the day with lynn telling us the "change in the equation"... we were to serve four-and-a-half hours of library cleaning work on saturday... i'd rather this... get it done and over with... then to serve it out over a space of five bloody days... we were counting our lucky stars by then... smiles start to appear... little did they not realise the amount of hell to befall on us on saturday... four-and-a-half hours of hard labour!!!!!!!!
however i didnt know why the hell lynn was so damn pissed at us... we did not exactly damage school property... nor did we ever vandalise... we had no harmful intents... we could have resetted the com properties with ease... he looked to be fuming mad although he claims nothing of it... i now wonder whether he was the benevolent teacher i once knew... maybe not quite... maybe we were really wrong... but it was as if we ignited a calamity... even andrew found it rather weird as he thought him to have a good sense of humour... but i do think badly of his decision to punish cheuk... who in my perspective did no wrong... and was accused to have wanted the publicity... i do not hate him at all... we did the wrong... maybe he was just doing his duty as the school disciplinarian... maybe he had to...
-______-||| .........so much so for the ill omen for the day... the damned newspaper forecasted our string of events... too coincidental perhaps? oh yea... those peeps who dint admit to the thingy... it goes well to show much about your guts... character... and integrity... i have SOOOO much respect for you man... i do not wish to pursue the matter... buden the mere thought of the cowardice pisses me off fucking much... thank you... :)
Listening to...
Offspring - She's Got Issues
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8:47 PM
Monday, August 18, 2003
hrrmmm... i was listening to my playlist for a while... and i realised what a great band Radiohead is... was... and is to be...
especially their track EXIT MUSIC ( FOR A VIDEO ) ...
its darn nice... even for such a bizzare music title... bigga up for Radiohead
highly recommended for the alternative rock enthusiasts!!!
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10:03 PM
absolute serenity... peace...
peace... inner peace...
it seems that inner peace reigns as the dominant form of peace...
in pin-drop silence one can still complain of noise and insane-tendency...
on the contrary... in a rowdy place one with inner peace is still able to maintain his/her sanity...
it doesnt matter where you are in... it matters how you think of it...
until now inner peace seems to be rather distant from me... buden again environmental serenity doesnt seem too near to me either...
my mom's incessant nagging is driving me to the edge of my sanity...
its time i start cooling down and reflect on how i should react... and prevent the scenario of my over-reaction... which occurs all the time...
yea...like reaaal...
Listening to...
System of a Down - Spiders
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9:18 PM
Saturday, August 16, 2003

| your clothes are properly folded, hung up and put away. you watch tv in moderation. you like to visit with friends but also like a little alone time as well. you tend to change clothes frequently and you definitely wash your hands after a visit to the toilet! | |
oh my oh my... it seems that im not that incorrigible after all... I CAN BE SAVED...
note: i said i can be... but i dint say whether i want to or not...
Listening to...
Stereophonics - Madame Helga
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10:51 PM
roaming in this world with no motive in mind...
pondering just why...
why do some seek only to destroy...
and some seek only to love and be loved...
and some just live indifferent to the outter world...
knocked subconsciously to the innate realm which exists only themselves
what is love? what is hate? what is the world?
what am i?
i exist only for the sake of existing...
to observe and mock the stupidity foul mankind to do to themselves once absolute power is handed to them...
and not to interfere... not to judge... but only to view, scorn and then cease to exist...
Listening to...
HIM - Buried Alive By Love
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10:08 PM
Friday, August 15, 2003
Le Nostradamus De Notre Epoqué
Like Nostradamus I foresee – a world of pain and misery
I'm Notre Damus from Paris – sightseer, hear it's elegy
save me, save me
According to what he saw those centuries ago
the entire world will blow up... eventually
it's not that he's been right before, but a fool can see the signs
saw war, a black planet in 1999
Today! I thought it over, why should I waste
my mind/time - it's over
I see neo-holocaust, world war III rage across/crush Europeople
he predicted the French revolution and I see the second coming
I've seen the dark megalomaniac, his name is xxx
boy, there's black clouds on our horizon. We can build ourselves
rockets but we can't escape our destiny, our destiny
Today! I saw it over, why should I waste
my time - it's over
Today! I thought it over, why should I waste
my mind - it's over
very morale-boosting saying from our dear "reliable" friend notre damus...
-_____________________-|||
if i were to actually listen to this self-proclaimed prophet and his herecies... i would be a complete idiot
what powers has he that enables him to see what we cannot? buden again... he got what he wanted... fame and suspicions all around the world... there must be some damned infidels in some corner of the world that truly believes what this idiot is saying..... i would wish that there would be a valid excuse that i can use so i can procrastinate on...
buden... no... SEX.
Listening to...
Racer-X - Technical Difficulties (Guitar Solo)
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9:53 PM
exams are drawing near... surprisingly this is the first time i do feel a tinge of chill in the deepest most of my spine
yes i do feel it... i need to study for my promos... and yes i cannot afford to fail this one...
cause there will be no more chances for me... i cant fail it... not for my parents... not for myself...
sincerely i do hope that all the retainees in school... whether i like them or not...
to all make it through to year 2... sort of a unity thingy...
may we all pesevere through these dark times and study hard and pass the muthafarking obstacles... peace out!
Listening to...
Radiohead - Exit Music (For A Film)
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9:35 PM
Thursday, August 14, 2003
today was a bloody long shagged day.... had econs and gp test on the same day... this knocked the living shit outta me...
think i screwed both tests big time... should have studied... thats me man... regretting not to study after the test itself
buden again... procrastination is too tempting... my willpower is darn weak...
after the gp test i went straight down to LT4 to support sanjeev, kash and co. in their major jam...
before they appeared... we had to tolerate the choir group singing REALLYYY "pleasant' tunes...
what could i say man... music to my ears.... -____________-|||
then there's this group who sang some church hymn... sounds rather melancholic and all...
meanwhile... their drummer(product of MAINLAND), in his bid to show off his STUNNING ARRAY OF SKILLS, did a darn fast drumming solo ending... haha so much so for their peaceful church hymn huh... hahahahaa... NOT OUT OF POINT AT ALL
then came
THEM... they lacked this and that... but to me they sounded generally quite alright... maybe they were too nervous and all... jeev was looking at the lyrics all the time... his mouth left way off the mike and thats why we couldnt hear him sing clearly... another reason was that he was darn near our beloved drummer kashnan dara... i must admit dara did a damn good job... perfect beats and all... ken was reasonably fine too... and jeev was brave enough not to chicken out like one of their VERYYY BELOVED frontman... respect to all ya dudes!!! (i mean those who performed... hahaha)
Listening to...
Radiohead - High And Dry
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9:49 PM
Wednesday, August 13, 2003
happiness... joy to the receiving end...
magnanimousity on the part of the giver...
to give joy is to bestow joy upon yourself too... or so they say...
selfish sceptics begging to differ...
remorse... guilt on the part of the giver...
suffering to the victim...
guilt of stricken self-conscience...
to be debated by the cold-blooded...
love... deemed perfect by the eyes of the naive...
moment of memory... eternal bliss... or so they say... or so they think...
lust... welcomed by the masses...
forget the pain... drown in the sin... feel the high... consequences dire...
chaos... picture perfect of terror...
epitomy of sin... divine humane nature... alias love of anarchy
tranquility... absence of the above...
devoid of all... feelings none... attainment of peace... unworldly... innate mindset
absolute at death...
tribute to kurt cobain (1967-1994)... relieved of the pain of the world... and of courtney love...
Listening to...
Nirvana - You Know You're Right
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8:15 PM
Tuesday, August 12, 2003
was comtemplating whether or not to start studying for my gp and econs test this thursday... haha maybe not
damn bored so i listed my fav stuff over here:
fav actor: tom hanks cos he's so darn good at acting duhhh
fav actress: tara reid cos she's damn damn damn damn damn damn hot!!!
fav entertainer: i would have to say its eminem... never fails to provoke the fans heh...
favorite all time bands ( rock on!!!) :
*in randomised order
1) Chevelle
2) Marilyn Manson
3) Nickelback
4) Papa Roach
5) Offspring
6) System of a Down
7) Jimmy Eat World
8) Finch
9) Nirvana
10)Metallica
i keep telling myself i must study but
the flesh is weak... haha
nothing much to talk about today... only that i will bloody fuck myself in the backside if i still persist on procrastinating
fuck that and peace out! PS: oh yar pls visit the #1 claypot link... yupp
Listening to...
Black Sabbath - Children Of The Grave
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9:25 PM
Monday, August 11, 2003
for all you infidels out there who still dunno david tan's full name... here's it:
DAVID LEGEND ULTIMATE OMEGA MOST POWERFUL ABDOMINAL MUTHAFARKING JUSTICE CUM MAGISTRATE DRAGON KING TAN (TITANIUM-PLATED RED EX VERSION)
dunno why but chevelle-the red is still my favorite song ever... this is the first time ive been enchanted to a song for 3 whole months and not shown utter disgust... the emotion packed with solid anger symbolised by the color red was totally displayed by appropriate upbeat of amplitude and tempo...
everyday seems to be full of nothing but lethargy... getting tired of being lethargic (no pun intended)
my life seems to be going down the drain... maybe this is the ulterior motive of the singapore education system
to ultimately destroy potentials who will lead singapore to her damnation... haha
was waiting at the school gate for cheuk yu... when i got whacked a hard one for no reason at all... and that imbecile who landed that blow still got the cheek to kindly inform me that he dint get to see cheuky...
i pondered for a brief moment and came to the conclusion that this big HE thinks that i was bad-mouthing him in front of him and his girl to my friends... i did not farking do that, boy...
for whatever reasons, i did not do that... and i wonder why he was so darn paranoid over this...
i mean if you're doing something not against ur goddamn conscience you wont be farking freaked out about paparazzi talking behind your royal almightiness....
then was walking to the busstop when he showed me THE FINGER... i was like pitying him for that very instant...
by gesticulating he actually was attempting to impress his girl... woah... in what an awkward fashion... MY HEROOOOO.... claypot to da max!
-___________________________-|||
i felt rather pissed off over this... now im cool about it... i was just thinking... oh well... we each live our own demented lives... i have absolutely no right to interfere with his...and so has he none... but i felt rather sad(more to the disappointment side) that he actually farking misunderstood me... and the impression he makes in front of his girl is utterly different from the person i once knew... meanwhile... ive learnt that friendship stands up to farking nothing at all in front of the opposite gender... ive farking learnt to take things in my farking stride... it makes no farking big deal to me anyway... and who the fark would give a damn.
Listening to...
Smashing Pumpkins - Bullet With Butterfly Wings
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6:25 PM
Sunday, August 10, 2003
.....................................
... was just wondering whether the world was actually real...
or that the reality of the world was actually just a fallacy on my part...
it seems as though everyone were just humanoids acting on a central programme of control
everyone only lives for themselves and has no power to subject themselves against the malicious authority
pinched myself to confirm that ive been living in the actual world and not in wonderland...
it was however.. not to my relief that i realised this is the permanent cold reality...
to my horror being in the actual world... everyone were just like that of humanoids...
in retrospect... everyone now is like a totally new hybrid of
humanity... becoming more
inhumane...
i know not how they really look like...
they wear masks everyday... their social circle being exposed only to smiles and angelic postures...
others know nothing of the vicious intent of their black hearts...
they too reserve their dark sides to themselves...
i find myself too slowly devoured into this system of unreal, no matter whether im willing or not...
for this is a vicious cycle...
i dare not envisage what the future holds for us... in what forms what we
humans will morph into...
this is the present-day world... a fake world...
soon one day we will all cease to exist... another dominant living organism will lay their hands on this fouled planet that we once ruled... and they will look back at us... in a distant memory... like how we marvelled at the fossils of colossal dinosaurs in awe... and wonder at their cause of extinction... and so will they at us...
Listening to...
Rob Zombie - Scum Of The Earth
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11:23 PM
Friday, August 08, 2003

WIND is your chinese symbol!
What Chinese Symbol Are You? -- Updated (7/21/03) brought to you by Quizilla
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nothing beats this man... as soon as i said that im moody in the early mornings...
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9:21 PM
today was rather wasted... went to school to celebrate national's day man... cant believe i woke up so darn early to go to school sneer at the school dancers in action... i was already pretty tired from yesterday night... 'cause yesterday ive been out the whole day as well and slept pretty late... which explains my mood swing every morning as well... noticed that i get agitated easily when im darn tired... i should sleep more... (and also eat more... -____-)
after the dumb celebrations i went out with some friends to lido to catch a movie called How To Deal... starring Mandy Moore... dammit man dint like her at all from the start already... the whole movie ended as a somewhat boring movie... lousy plot and inexperienced actors... i was rather lacklustre the whole day due to this... oh well... stoned at starbucks after that for quite some time... during all these while we were all playing this stupid childish game first sighted at one of the epis of Malcolm In The Middle... the objective is to first curl the index finger and the thumb to a circle... then somehow trick other demented fools to look at that gesture below your waistline... the reward will be that you are allowed to hit that loser once... pretty dumb game... actually its extremely retarded... but however it kept us away from boredom for quite some time also
to dev: i didnt mean to suspect you.... but all the fingers were pointed at you... what would you do if you were me? anyway i did not intend to pursue the matter... it wouldnt matter much to me anyway... just wanted to clarify some stuff only... although it was a somewhat greyish area of doubt... but i generally dont think too much of it... live on life as it was... peace out all you dudes out there...
Listening to...
Maksim - Claudine
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8:59 PM
Thursday, August 07, 2003

Death, the second of The Endless, you are
responsible for ending all lives and taking
them to your realm, from which no one ever
returns. You are bright, positive, happy,
optimistic and enjoy everything about life, but
that does not mean your silly or stupid. You
can lay the smack down when you have to!
Everyone loves you, and they don't know why.
Which Endless are you? brought to you by Quizilla
all the endless characters seem rather cool to me... thanks for introducing those shit to me andrew... the optimissm reflects the outter me... but i think your character is the coolest...
anyway ive encountered this saying somewhere... i forgot where... here goes:
procrastination is just like masturbation... it makes you feel great until in the darn end you'll realise that you have just fucked yourself
~Anonymous
great saying... great meaning... ive been masturb... oh i mean procrastinating for quite a darn while... and as of yet... my results have been of mediocre standards... cant really find the mood to get down and mug for a couple of hours... however rest assured that this shall be my last week of self-indulgence... to work hard and get results... to gain back the trust of my parents... and then ill havoc again... -___-
in the mood for fast music... here's one power-packed song:
Listening to...
Cradle Of Filth - Hallowed Be Thy Name
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11:15 PM
Wednesday, August 06, 2003
fuck. did nothing much today... went to hit the gym again... i do it either on wednesdays or on fridays... no big deal... nothing special happened in school... school was extremely boring lately... time paces itself excruciatingly slow somehow... i was wondering around in dreamland for 2 school hours today... i was rarely so darn knocked out... maybe i was not... maybe its just that school is way too boring... i despise the school authorities... the discipline committee... the building itself... and very much the students that make up the very school itself... i go to school everyday because im
OBLIGED to do so... parents' overwhelming stress for me to do well in my upcoming promos creates an instinctive repulsion against my notes... haha im now just pushing the blame to them for my lack of diligence...
i was just thinking about it in school... the girls trying their very best to mingle around the most happening group in school and all... this should happen everywhere... but this is especially so in acjc... dont have much respect for them... and i dont care what they think of me... rather confused about their state of mind, what the fuck's really up in their demented minds... so what if they really attain the utmost popularity... the whole school cohort looks up to them and all... everything will be reduced to nothing at all once school term ends... everyone is the same... no mortal could be so powerful enough to escape the clutches of death itself... why is everyone trying so hard to prove themselves... this is a question that i can only ponder about and never grasp the anatomy of it... maybe being indifferent to everything is the best way out huh.... because everything we do we have to put in lots of effort... and it eventually comes back to nothing... pain..suffering..remorse..joy..peace..satisfaction.... none of these last the sands of time... maybe im just overrun by fatigue... ( fuck man this blog is making me damn muthafarking gay -____-||| )
Listening to...
Marilyn Manson - Coma White
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7:51 PM
Tuesday, August 05, 2003
today was a day of paranoia..chaos and somewhat massacre... so many darn people got caught for inappropriate hairstyles and got sent to the merciless butcher aka raju the barber... fuck man hate him... he ought to be burning in hell right now... i was doing my usual hiding from teachers... even paul tan the school hero got caught and sported a rather bizarre image at the end of the day... boy was he geezed off... i was counting my lucky stars as i think im one of the rare few that actually escaped the wrath of THAM & CO.
things i love (in random order):
1) angry music
2) stylish apparel
3) stylish hairstyles
4) babes babes babes!!!
5) posh clubs
6) solid liquor
7) loyal friends
8) sarcastic lame remarks
9) jagging those act chio demented shit in school till they wished they were never borne
10)last but not the least... speaking for all guys... SEX!!!
things i loathe (also in random order):
1) act chio buay chio girls in school... they should all burn in hell
2) traditional cannot-make-it ac poseurs... they too should suffer the intense heat along with the REEAAALL CHIOBUS... -___-|||
3) discipline teachers who got nothing better else to do than to catch students with mediocre offences
4) stuck-up people
5) pop and jazz
6) bisexual... transexual.. gays and anything along that demonic line of distortion
7) gates of hell guarded by 2 hairy hellhounds ( in other words... that means ugly girls zaogeng and their legs are hairy... yucks~! )
8) puking due to over-drinking of liquor and the hangover that follows soon after that
9) sweating
10)pungent smell emanated from the excruciating mix of body odour and sweat
anyway i just realised that i dunno anything about my current curriculum syllabus... maybe i should start studying and stop procrastinating like what im doing for the last year... besides that... andrew i think it would all turn out fine for you and stop worrying about it too much... respect for all you people reading my gay blog... RESTECP!
Listening to...
Jimmy Eat World - The Middle
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8:55 PM
Sunday, August 03, 2003
shagged. went to help david 's uncle out and earned myself some hard-earned cash... now that i think of it...money is indeed quite hard to come by ... i have learnt my lesson already about the importance of having cash inside my empty wallet :
I SHALL SPEND IT ALL UP ON FOOD ON MONDAY!!! :)
(PS : i shall decline to comment on the venue of our work)
today is sunday...aka family day... where alot of happy and blissful families appear in town and enjoy the company of one another... hmm... how blessed are they man... i feel this from an extreme perspective because i was slogging my heart out and sweating like a mad dog under the "merciful" sun... lucky for all three of us (vish, david and me) the supplies ran out darn fast and ended our psychotic array of sprints... thank god all three of us were at the pink of our health and vish did not faint from heat-stroke or over-stuffing of food... saw all kinds of people there and watched in horror as many stood up to dance along to the beat of the dumb, lame Singaporean Patriotic Lamentations... i was utterly shocked that apathy was not the dominant force there as many seemed to be participating as national day would-be enthusiasts... anyway nothing seems to be what i desired... budden again... today was a fine day for me on the whole... it was good... sex...
Listening to...
Metallica - Enter Sandman
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9:01 PM
Friday, August 01, 2003

You're the smirk,a frown-smile hybrid that's a
little bit cocky and usually associated with
evil or arrogant,but attractive people.You
probably just don't give a damn,but it's
everyone else's fault if you don't because
you're too awesome to have any real faults.
What Kind of Smile are You? brought to you by Quizilla
style sial... was damn bored so did quite abit of quizillas... looks like my smile is only filled with apathy... but fuck... what gives...
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8:52 PM

You are an introvert. You are shy about expressing
your opinions and you probably don't think that
many people know the real you. But your friends
enjoy your company. You are probably very
modest. In fact I'd say your modesty is
probably the reason many people like you. You
probably have insecurities. If you do have
insecurities they are probably misplaced.
What's your personality? brought to you by Quizilla
true to some parts... while others are just plain bull... i thought i would be an extrovert... buden again.. the description did have its partial facts abt me correct... i wont mention which parts.. you go figure them out yourself
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8:05 PM

You are Hate.
You care little to nothing about people and things
around you. You are consumed by feelings of
animosity and loathing towards everything or
one thing and it affects your view of all that
is around you.
What Emotion Are You? brought to you by Quizilla
hrmm... maybe i really do loathe a certain thing or two... but being consumed by feelings and affecting my entire viewpoint is quite bullsh*t...
today went to hit the gym again... feeling damn good now... always feeling better after every gym workout... i realised i have been pretty bored with life lately... no new stuff happening around me... just the usual stuff...tutorials...project work...lectures and homework homework homework... maybe doing gym is somewhat enriching... it somehow elevates my mind away from my academic life... AND MAYBE CAUSE THE DAMN PROMOS ARE IN 7 WEEKS TIME?!?!?!?~
suddenly missed abhi, mingzheng and andrew all... thought about the fond memories when we poked fun at every single living entity (maybe sometimes even non-living objects)... those were the carefree days when results didnt seem to be anywhere on our minds and all... we just intended to have fun, fun and more fun... now come to think of it... alot of the retainees are gone... maybe more on the way... i just hope that after this year whats left of the retainee group will all stay together and promote to j2... ~yupp hang in there guys!!! ( fuck! i sound damn gay... oh well... -___-||| )
Listening to...
Black Rebel Motorcycle Club - Whatever Happened To My Rock & Roll
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7:30 PM
about me
::my info::
name:yuhao
age:21 yrs old
gender:male
affiliations:none as of yet
msn: go guess you twit